Friday, 25 May 2018

Stuck in the Middle

I'm sitting on my sofa, watching Jane the Virgin on Netflix (SERIOUSLY enjoying it btw), and I feel like I'm a little stuck in the middle.

I've been feeling it for a while. You know that feeling where you know where you want to be in life, but you also know it's going to take a while and you don't know how long 'a while' is so you can't seem to find the light at the end of the tunnel?

That's it. That's how I'm feeling. A little stuck.

I've spoken a few times on here about the fact that where I work at the moment isn't what I want to be doing with my life. It's defo not just me that feels that way. I think retail is always going to be one of those jobs that is made up of most of the people really not wanting it to be their careers.

But for me, it's just the waiting part - and I'm SO impatient. I want everything now. But I think the worst part is that I don't even know how  know what I want to do, and I know (kinda) how to get there, but it seems like so far off! I don't feel like I'll ever get there at this point in time, and I don't want to be wasting a whole chunk of my life waiting till I get the qualifications I need to get there.

But alas, it is what I must do. 

I just need to make sure I don't lose sight of the end game. I know it's going to take a while, but it's going to be one step at a time.

One. Step. At. A. Time.

Wednesday, 2 May 2018

April 2018 Monthly Diary

So, this month we went on the hunt for cheap Easter eggs, had a broken bed, I had my first ever driving lesson and I also tried out some new makeup! Hope ya enjoy!

Friday, 6 April 2018

March 2018 Monthly Diary

I lost so much footage from this month! In this month we went to Scotland for a good friends wedding at the beginning of the month, we found ourselves in a real pickle with the hotel situation - our friend had found a 'good deal' and it ended up being a disaster 😂😂 AAAAND we also had a lot of snow at the beginning of the month! This is why the diary starts in the middle of March!

Friday, 2 March 2018

Feb 2018 Monthly Diary

This month involves piano practising, flicking chilli in my eye, mcdonalds, pancake day, valentines day and being EARLY FOR WORK (I know, crayzeee).

Saturday, 3 February 2018

January 2018 monthly diary

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRR!!! This diary entry consists of me being late for work, eating curry, being a technical wizarddd, a freezing flat, freezing weather, becoming more comfortable with my bare makeup-free face, seeing The Greatest Showman, my Grandad's birthday and chilaxinggg.

Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Looking after yourself

This week has been so relaxed. I had the week booked off work (because I had holiday to take and I ) decided to spend the week with my Mum and two littelest brothers. 

These past few months have been hectic what with a full time job, trying to stay up with uploading to YouTube twice a week, and volunteering to help work with Jonno and his job. Whilst I love doing all that I do and I wouldn't change it, it's not come without many tears I tell ya!

But this week, I went back to my hometown with nothing but my laptop and the idea to binge-watch as much Gossip Girl on Netflix as I can. And rest assured, that I have done! I have gotten through a season and a half in three days! 

Sometimes I worry so much about making every single day count towards where I want my future to be, and taking time out to just worry about nothing and do what you feel like in the moment is so beneficial and I reckon that doing nothing the past 5 days will make the next few months better. 

So now, I'm feeling super relaxed, and I'm looking forward to spending the night catching up with my bestie, and I'm reallllllllyyyy looking forward to being reuntied with Jonno tomorrow! 

Monday, 8 January 2018

December 2017 Monthly Diary

This month's diary involves, me being a bad vlogger and forgetting to record stuff, putting up our christmas tree, just being content with life, having interviews, failing interviews, takeaway, hiccups, making christmas tree decorations, and christmas funnnnn!!!