Thursday, 27 October 2016

When The Message at Church is Spot on!

These past two week have been particularly hard. I got some bad news last week, and with the wedding on top of that, I got a bit stressed to say the least. I was worrying about EVERYTHING. And the worry turned to panic, and the panic turned to breakdowns.

I went to church and the message was SO spot on. It was about prayer, and I realised, I had been crying, I had been talking, I had been worrying, but I hadn't been praying. I hadn't been putting God first, and giving my worries with him. 

He wasn't ignoring me, I was ignoring him.

So.. at the end of the preach, the preacher gave three rules for the next week.
  1. start the day deciding to trust God. Get ahead of worry by declaring trust. He is who he is and he will do what he says he will do.
  2. choose to live in the peace of today, and not the worry of tomorrow.
  3. when worry arrives and knocks at your door (because it WILL turn up, unexpected), remember all that God has done and what he will do. 
So, this week, I'm not going to worry, and when I start, I'm going to stop and give it to God. 

Monday, 24 October 2016

Hen do!

Three weeks ago was my hen do! We went to go ape in the morning and climbed some trees, and in the evening we had a cocktail making session. I absolutely LOVED it, had so much fun, and I felt so loved. They had all made it so me; they know me so well. 

They made it so special, even to the point where the sash's had quotes from different musicals on, and they were all wearing something sparkly for the evening! 

You always need incredible girls round you, and I'm so thankful I do!

Bring on the wedding!!!!

Saturday, 22 October 2016

The countdown is on!

Today marks exactly a week before I get to marry my favourite person in the whole wide world, and I could not be happier about it.

Life with him is SO much fun, and I know it's only going to get better as we get older. He's my rock and I'm so excited for this adventure.

Monday, 17 October 2016

Struggling in the Seasons

I'm not going to lie, this season of life is a struggle.

I'm struggling to adapt to having a job that's monotonus, and not what I want to do. I'm struggling in the house I'm living in because it's freezing ALL the time and I have messy housemates. I'm struggling with the fact that Jonno works evenings and so I spend my evenings bored, on my own, watching crap on the TV.

I know it's just a season, but it's a difficult season that I'm really struggling in, and I know that the only way to combat it is to:
A, focus on where I want to be and what I want to be doing and try to get step by step closer to that and 
B, focus on the little things that make life happy, like today..

  • I went to asda and a little boy ran into me. His dad rolled his eyes at him and laugh-apologised to me. I laughed back and said I didn't mind. It was a nice interaction.
  • I went for a walk in the park amongst orange leaves and green grass. I love the outdoors.
  • I bought a candle and hot chocolate (and squirty cream, because can ya really have hot chocolate without it?!). And the hot chocolate hit a spot that needed to be hit.
  • I have a great fiance, who is just great, and he's so patient and he's always there with hugs when I need.

It's focusing on the little things, that's how I'm going to get through this season.