Saturday, 25 March 2017

We Live in Such a Weird World!


This morning as I was getting ready to go out, I watched last night's Red Nose Day (literally only to watch red nose day actually - the charity remake of love actually).

One of the stories they showed was of a mother who had to leave her 3 children under 10 at home all day so she could search a landfill site all day, in the boiling sun, and at the end of the day only have earnt as little as 25p.

And now, only hours later, I'm sitting on a train behind a girl who literally took 20 minutes to pick out and edit an instagram photo.

Like I don't wanna judge or belittle the girl; she's just a product of the society she's grown up in. But I just thought it was SO scary to me how much it's such a horrific contrast in lives and priorities.

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Trusting IN the moment.

So many times there's been a bad situation in my life, and I've cried about it. I've worried about it. I've tried to sort it by myself.

And then I've found that It's only when I come out of the situation that I realise God was so present and he was there the whole time moving all the pieces at the right time to make an incredible story. And then, when I realise, I'm annoyed at myself that I didn't trust God when I was right there in the moment.

So that's what I'm trying to do now.

After Jon and I finished university in June, we felt that God was telling us to stay in the city we were in. It felt right, so we did. But then stuff started going wrong;  and in short the past 12 months have had some of the worst moment of my life, bringing out breakdowns and panic attacks that I've never experienced before. I was so confused I didn't know why this was happening. Weren't we obedient?! Weren't we faithful?!

A lot of the time we just felt stuck. Especially as we were both spending our days in jobs that were not ones we wanted to be in. We felt hopeless.

This was until last week when Jon was offered the job of his dreams in a city about an hour and a half away. Things were looking up, and we've started to get excited about it - especially as they've asked him to start as soon as possible!

But. We're not quite there yet.. We're still waiting to find a flat. We're still waiting for me to get a job there. There's still a lot we need to get done and do. But this time we're going to trust IN the moment, like we should have all this time.

I'll keep you updated!!