Monday, 17 July 2017

Why I Started Blogging

Last year, in her early nineties, my Nan passed away. She had suffered with vascular dementia for the last ten years of her life but it had only been diagnosed for the last 4 years.

She was a lady with a huge sense of humour, she loved life and would constantly sing. She never took anything seriously and she would sometimes get into fits of laughter and no one could understand what she was saying - or so I hear.

The thing is, I never really knew her.

All I know of her is from when she was ill. All I can remember of her was when she would ask me the same question repeatedly. All I can remember is when she would say weird things. All I can remember is when she couldn't differentiate between her grandsons and it would upset her.

I remember so profoundly the few times her dementia would subside and Mum would say "I saw a glimpse of her, then." But they were so few and far between, and they would only last for 5 minutes.

So when she went to heaven last year, I didn't mourn her. I cried, a lot, but I didn't mourn her.

I didn't mourn her because I knew her really. Not the way she really was.

The day after she passed away, my Granddad got out a letter that she had written to him when they were just dating. It just talked of how she missed the bus, and how she was planning on going to the post office the next day, but I cried and cried and cried knowing that she wrote this letter because it reminded me of the fact that she used to be someone who was did normal things and I never knew that person.

It was her but before I had ever known her and that, to me, was so special.

So in short, that is why I wanted to write this blog. Maybe I'll have kids one day, and maybe they'll have kids. And maybe they can read up on bits of my life and it can be special to them.

And that is why I love this little blog which talks about silly conversations I've had and the things I'm loving at the moment, and the way I'm feeling at the moment.

They're little pieces of my normal life that won't be here for long!

Monday, 10 July 2017

I Work in Retail #2

I was serving a lady at the till, and she pops her card into the chip and pin machine. She then shuffles from foot to foot sighing, staring at the machine.

She then looks at me and says, "Uh, it's just saying please wait."

I look at her and, without wanting to be rude, awkwardly respond, "Um.. so.. probably.. just erm, wait?"

Monday, 3 July 2017

Just Starting Out.

I have always been impatient. I have this mentality like I WANT IT ALL AND I WANT IT ALL NOW. The wallpaper on my phone says 'one step at a time', because I really need to always remind myself that allll it's about the journey and that pretty much everything worth doing it better when it's done one step at a time.

This includes my and Jon's living situation. 

I always said that I loved the stories of people who said, "when we first got married we only had a mattress on the floor and a fridge" or whatever. I love hearing of how people started and how they worked themselves up bit by bit. It sounds silly but I just never realised that they obviously had to live in that moment, with the bare minimum. 

So at this point in our loves, Jon and I are doing just that. Our DVD collection is on the floor. Our TV is balancing on a tiny chest of drawers. We have no full length mirror (that bit is killinggggg me). Jon is getting sick of the amount of times I keep saying, "We really need a..." 

BUT this is us starting out. I know we've been married for 8 months, but we lived for the first 6 months in a house share (I HATED it, the less said about that the better). So this is really the beginning for us. 

I never want to forget this bit. I never want to forget where we started. I WANT to build it up. I WANT to get things slowly. So, I took some pictures and I wanted this to be our story. I wanted this to be our, "when we started out we lived in boxes for the first year" etc. 

This is life and life is all about 'one step at a time'.

Our DVD collection layed out on the floor. You can also see the PS4 balancing on the DVD's. This makes it difficult when we want to watch a film that's under there!

We still have lots of boxes out because we live in a 1 bed flat and so storage space is minimal. We just need some pretty storage boxes haha! The bottom box is board games, The box above is photo frames we need to stick up, but we have to get adhesive hooks first, and the top box is electricals and just has lots of wires, chargers and headphones in it!!

This is our current photo layout, because we still need the hooks to pop the photos on the wall!

This is a double duvet that is for when we have people stay over. It's placed on some bags and boxes full of books, and sits in between our fridge/freezer and our sofa!

The fact that we don't have guitar stands drives me crazy!! Jon also bought the really lovely canvas in the left corner a few weeks ago, but because we don't have any adhesive hooks we can't stick it on the wall, so it's hidden by our dining table (which is what I'm sat at whilst writing this!).

This is our closet situation! Look at all the shoes haha! The small box on the right consists of my underwear and the larger pink one is overflowing with pyjamas and trousers/leggings/jogging bottoms. The top section has Christmas decorations, a suitcase, and just random bits of Jon's clothing. I have no idea but I'm sure there's method to his madness!

"I don't care if you don't believe it, that's the kind of house I live in and I hope I never leave it" - Dr Seuss.