Sunday, 22 September 2019

29 weeks!



How Far Along: 29 weeks!

Baby Size: a large butternut squash which is terrifying!

Sleep: ALLLLL THE TIME. I've been feeling really tired all the time, and having moments when standing when I feel really weak for a few seconds. I put it down to just good ole preggo symptoms, but when I mentioned to my midwife this week, apparently I might be anemic - which is bad but also I hope I am, so then they can stick me on some iron pills and then I might start to feel a little better! 

Anything making you queasy or sick: nope! And I don't take it for granted!

Food Cravings: Nope! I was talking to a colleague at work who was saying all through her pregnancy she would eat ice-cream with blocks of cheddar cheese mixed in, and I was saying that I'm so sad I don't have any weird cravings like that. Gimme the pickles. Gimme the weird combinations. Gimme allllll the weird cravings.  

Symptoms: An ever growing bump, less heartburn than before, so fingers crossed it stays that way. Also napping. I usually hate napping in normal life but it's all I seem to be able to do at the moment. Like I literally can't help it. It doesn't stop me from dozing off at night though so it's not too bad.

Miss anything: wine. I really missed red wine this week! Also fried egg with the yolk not popped. 

Happy or moody most of the time: tired and irritable. I also had a little breakdown this week over not feeling comfortable in the clothes I used to love, so I spent my Friday evening trying on everything I own and putting all the clothes that don't fit me (or won't in a few weeks) and sticking it in a vacuum pack bag so that now I'm not going to have a meltdown when I pick out something I've been thinking of wearing and then realise it's too small and I look ridiculous in it. We're gunna move out in March when our contract for this flat is up because it's too small for us and baby, and I've decided I'm gunna not unpack the bag till after we move - which'll put less pressure on me to feel like I wanna get back into my pre-preggo clothes. I don't wanna fall into that trap!

Movement: Looooads. When the midwife checked me over this week, she was like "put your hand here.. That's a little foot." It was amazing to be able to identify her little baby foot.

Best Moment This Week: Feeling her little foot kicking away. Also, when the midwife listened into her heat-rate she said that baba sounded really happy, which I was happy with! 

Looking Forward To: Meeting baba when she arrives. I'm just so excited to meet her and see her little face and watch her personality develop although I'm also trying not to wish this time away, because I know I won't get back alllll the free time me and Jon have at the moment! 

Thursday, 5 September 2019

26 Weeks Preggo!





How Far Along: 26 weeks! Haven't updated for a while, but I think it's because symptoms-wise it's been pretty much the same, but bump-wise I feel like I've just popped out of nowhere!

Baby Size: papaya/bunny which is fun!

Sleep: alllllll the broken sleep. Heartburn, upper-backache which is only made better by sleeping on my back, which causes lower-backache, needing to pee at least twice a night. So yeah, sleep is not going too well at the moment, but I think it might be a good thing because it's getting me ready for when baba's here!

Anything making you queasy or sick: not at the moment.. Just realll bad and annoying heartburn after I eat anything and everything.

Food Cravings: sweet stuff still. And tuna mayo. Yeah, I dunno either.

Actually, I've been drinking a lot of tea at the moment. I don't think  it's a craving thing, but I think because I've stopped drinking caffeinated coffee I think my body has been replacing the coffee with  the tea to curb that caffeine fix.

Symptoms: A ever-growing stomach, heartburn, not being able to touch the floor without grunting haha!

Miss anything: breathing normally!! I'm always out of breath!

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy for the most part - but this week I've had two breakdowns - one just because I was 'feeling sad' and the second because I was 'really tired', so you could say hormone levels are at an all time confusing level.

Movement: lots and lots. Cutest moment this week was when I was doing my piano practice, and she was wriggling about like a little dancer. I hope she's super musical.

Best Moment This Week: Defo her dancing along to my piano practice. Also, we think we might have a name! We're not going to tell anyone because I'm really indecisive and am 50% sure it's going to change before she's here, but it's nice to know we have at least one we can decide on!

Looking Forward To: Meeting her!!

Saturday, 17 August 2019

22 Weeks Preggo!



How Far Along: 22 weeks!

Baby Size: apparently a papaya! Jon was looking this week and she's like almost 30 cm from crown to heel which feels massive!!

Sleep: So much! You know it's bad when I have to nap.. Because I hate naps. In general life I would never nap, and now I have no choice! I just have to otherwise I won't function - especially after work!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing I can think of at the moment!

Food Cravings: Still sweet things. I really want some angel's delight but we don't have a food processor. But I keep thinking about it!

Symptoms: Heartburn all the dayum time, backache and an evergrowing bump. People were asking me/Jon about me being pregnant at church so I think I'm getting past the 'she's eaten too much' stage and 'actually looking like I'm pregnant' stage haha!

Miss anything: Feeling normal! I'm always worrying about everything and anything, and I really miss just being able to be.

Happy or moody most of the time: Happyyyyyyyy!

Movement: Loads and loads!!!! Jon felt a kick this week which was so lovely! I feel like the pregnancy is so hard for the men because they literally have no connection to baba, so I was so excited and pleased Jonno felt a kick.

Best Moment This Week: Jonno feeling the kick and being able to share the movement I've been feeling for a few weeks with him.

Looking Forward To: starting a antenatal course this week!

Saturday, 10 August 2019

Letter to Baba

It's 9:50am on Wednesday 17th July 2019 and I have these butterflies in my stomach. Later on today, we're going to see you again, but this time you'll be bigger and this time we're going to be able to find out if you're a boy or a girl. 

I was so excited last night dreaming up all the possibilities you could be like when you're here. Will you be a giggler like me and your Uncle Isaac or will you be the one making everyone else laugh like your Uncle Elliot, your Great-Nan Maria and your Great-Grandad Colin? Will you be a panicker like your mama, or will you be calm and collected like your dad? Will you be really into sports like your Dad and Grandpa Wills or will you be more into creative things like your Mama Annabel? Will you be super intelligent and science-y like your Uncle Oscar? Or will you be intelligent in the way that your Grandpa Sallis is with his hands where he can fix just about anything? Will you have the gift of serving and loving people like your Nanny Claire? And will you have my blonde hair or your dad's dark hair? Will you be tall like him or more on the small side like me? Will you get my unfortunate bum chin that I inherited from my dad? 

There's so many possibilities I can think of who you'll be and I'm so thankful that I get to be your mama. So thankful that I get to notice the things you love and I pray I'll always let you lead with that. That you can always feel that you can tell me who you want to be in life and I'll uplift you and support you always. 

In short, I always thought I'd want a girl because I'm such a girly girl and I've been around boys so much my life, but I just remember when I was 12 and found out Isaac was going to be my fourth brother even though I'd prayed so hard for a sister, and I was devastated. But now, I wouldn't change anything about him. He's such a ball of life and fun, and I'm so glad he completed the Sallis kids as a boy. I know God has a plan and he's made you perfectly. He's knitted you together piece by piece and so don't get me wrong I'm so so so excited to finally find out whether you'll be my son or daughter, but I'm also aware that your gender will not restrict the kind of person you'll be. You can be anything you put your mind to, and I'm so thrilled that I get to be a part of that. 

See you soon, little one.




Ps, I'm back and you're a babby girlie!!! I cried when the sonographer told me, and looked at Jon and he said "told you so". What a smug whatsit! He had been saying he was sure you were a girl from the start! We're so excited to meet you girlie! Yay! I have a daughter!!!!!

Wednesday, 7 August 2019

19 weeks preggo!



How Far Along: 19 weeks! I forgot to do this for the past two weeks oooopps! But I feel like nothing really changed from before until this week!

Baby Size: a mango! Which I feel like is actually quite big! Or a guinea pig. Which is still quite big!

Sleep: I can fall asleep really easily, but still getting up at least once between 5:30-6:30 to pee every morning without fail. And also even when it's a day off I'm fully awake at 7:30 and I can't sleep in. I try to make myself with the thought that I've gotta get as much sleep as I can at the moment before sleep is a distant memory, but I just cannie (although not sure if that's because it's summer and super bright at that time, or if pregnancy. Who knows?1).

Anything making you queasy or sick: still the smell of fast food. Especially fries. Bleurghhhh! Also because I work in a bank, we get lots of people from all walks of life come in - especially those with bad, erm, smells. Usually you notice it, and you carry on because that's your job and that's just what you do.. but I've been really struggling with gagging. Like actual retching. It's so difficult to not make it obvious, and try to hide it and carry on and I have to really concentrate with some people to try to move further away from them and not make it obvious. That's been difficult because I never want to be rude or make them feel like I'm looking down on them because I'm honestly not.. No one has noticed yet and I'm just praying no one does!! I just don't know how to stop it!!

Food Cravings: all things fruit! Strawberries, watermelon, mango, anything. Also yesterday I bought lunch to work which was rice and beans and veg and it was a really healthy lunch yet all I wanted was a tuna mayo sandwich with ready salted crisps and a pepsi max. Usually if I fancy something else I'll just brush it off and eat what I've bought because A - what I've made is usually healthier, and B - it saves me spending money, but this was such a specific craving so I just had to. So I did and honestly it was exactly what I needed.

Symptoms: an ever-growing stomach?! I'm still at that pot belly stage, but I do feel massive already. But I've also realised I don't actually care if people just think I've got a pot belly. Pregnancy has made me feel so proud of what my body can do rather than just what it looks like, and I'm not mad about this revelation!

Miss anything: wine. Always wine. I started drinking 0% alcohol beer in the evening and I'm enjoying it. I also heard from a pregnancy forum that if you get a non-alcoholic dry red wine you can't really tell the difference, so I'm going to give that a try and see what I think! Non-alcoholic white wine literally tastes like you're drinking urine though so I'm not very optimistic!

Happy or moody most of the time: happy I think. Still a little irritable when I'm exhausted, but that's more being tired and frustrated more than anything else!

Movement: YESSSS!! Finally I've felt baba move! I even have seen my stomach move from the outside a couple of times! It's sporadic but it's there! It's usually when I'm sitting down in the evening or when I'm laying down in bed at night. I have felt it randomly while being at work though!

Best Moment This Week: feeling and seeing baby kick! I'm determined to get Jon to feel it kick, but no luck as of yet!

Looking Forward To: finding out the gender next week! Literally so excited for that!!

Saturday, 3 August 2019

It's ma 25th!!



Today I am 25!!! If someone asks me "how old are you?" I can answer "I'm in my mid twenties." My mid twenties!! Weeeeeird! In my head I'm still 18!

Year 24 was full of twists and turns. A new job, a new car, I passed my driving test AND a surprise pregnancy! So many things and I'm so excited for chapter 25! 

Today I was in Birmingham at Jon's parent's house because we picked up our new car yesterday - a Citroen that has aircon, an aux cable and 5 doors (no idea about actual car things though.. we have a reliable source that it's a good car haha)! We actually feel like real adults with a nice car that is going to be able to fit a little car seat with a baba in it!! ANYWAYYYYY, it was so lovely to spend the morning with Jon and his side of the family - especially our niece and nephew whilst they're still so little. Family is great. 

So Jon took me on a treasure hunt around his parent's house with clues (treasure hunts are my actual fave) and then we went out for lunch to a pub. We then went mini-golfing and then had fish and chips for dinner with the fam. Best. 25th. Ever.

A prefect day that was all for me :) Love that man and I'm so thankful for him.

I feel like this next year is going to be full of change, full of love, and full of just blind trusting in God and knowing that he is able to do immeasurably more than we can ever ask or imagine.

CHAPTER 25 LET'S GO.

Sunday, 28 July 2019

16 weeks preggo!



How Far Along: 16 weeks! Not too long before my 20 week scan!!

Baby Size: An avocado apparently!

Sleep: All good, except waking up with backache isn't the greatest! I also have to really try to not sleep on my back, which is how I prefer to sleep, which is so frustrating. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: I still can't really take the smell of fast food. It makes me want to hurlllllllllll

Food Cravings: Still anything sweet and juicy. ALL fruit, all chocolate haha!

Symptoms: Just feeling really full and bloated in my stomach, which I'm thinking that if I feel this way now when I'm not really showing at all, how am I going to feel when I'm 30+ weeks and massive?!

Miss anything: Being able to go to the loo properly! Haha, TMI, but I'll need the loo and not be able to go (and I mean both types of 'going'. Pregnancy. It's not glamorous folks!)..

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy most of the time, but still irritable! Jonno's been the best and I can't really fault him!

Movement: Nope, but I cannie wait for it!

Best Moment This Week: FINALLY telling my besties! I was waiting to tell them in person, but I just realised it would have been ages before they knew and I didn't wanna keep it from them!

Looking Forward To: Going to my Mum's Sunday just for the night but I'm so excited just to spend time with family.